A Private Poem:

There was a maiden of the wood

Who all ways was misunderstood

Who did all that she could to see

Her visions come to actually be.

So she pulled all the strings

And a great deal many things

And though for these same acts was hated

Orchestrated what was fated.

But there was one sorry stone

Who had been left well enough

Alone that was not prone to yield

But acted as a constant shield.

So the lady found a boulder

That was older and was bolder.

And they tried to break the stone

Hoping that he would atone.

But the boulder did not break

Not even then for her sake.

So the older one spake for her honour

But she was afraid

There was so much at stake

If he should con her

It would be unmade.

She dared not let this fate befall

So she parted with them all.

But the boulder sought her side

Even though he knew she lied.

Told her all that she so needed

So as she lay there defeated

She began then to conceive

A new plan then to deceive.

But it was a false conceit

And she met with such defeat.

And the stone was left alone again

But yet she crumbled then

And gave in to the boulder’s calm devices

For he knew the crisis. Showed her

Understanding and he bode her

To his landing.

But their merging was repugnant

To their virgin sensibilities.

And so they found themselves diverging

Beyond his abilities.

And so they parted once again

Until he hatched an other plan.

And now she goes to seal her woes

Again with that old rock-like man.

Yet as they had agreed

It is a ruse. A trick she learned to use

To keep him in her service.

Though he sleeps with her and is quite nervous.

Who can say that we deserve this?

It is all a mess.

But knowing silently its secrecy

Relieves us of the stress.

For ignorant the rock did mock

The innocent of stones.

And so he left the Truth

For Endless Youth

To walk the Earth Alone.

Dm.A.A.

Purification: Third Part.

It is ironic that Pisceans are associated with Illusion, and that by extension they are associated with Media. Often a Piscean would treat Media as THOUGH it were an illusion, even as an other person turns that horrid nightmare into a reality. So who is really responsible for the Illusion? It is the other person that becomes so lost in the dream that it becomes real…

It is quite probable that the first person whom I confided in after the treachery of Tapeworm was in fact LUIS, an other Scorpio. Luis ironically was the one who first showed me the way to Kettle Coffee.

Rafael was ungrateful for Kettle. He made use of it but never thanked me, even after the Treachery of Tapeworm. He might have reciprocated my trust with gratitude and with trustworthiness, knowing when to stop asking and to thank. But some minds can only confuse insubordination with treachery. Is it any surprise when they turn treacherous and feel totally justified? Their very attempts to justify the actual treachery underscore the pettiness of their original frustrations. A TRUE treachery is not against a person. It is against an IDEAL. But I have served the Ideal for so long that people have come to expect it. So when I find a higher ideal it comes off as a stab in the back. But one needs only to study them closely to see that they do not rise from Ideal to Greater Ideal, but rather sink into lower and lower levels of self-interested depravity, competitive angst, and Control.

Scorpios tend to be more in love with fiction as an end in and of its self than Pisceans are; when a Piscean engages in fantasy, it all ways is supposed to relate to the World in a thematic, Universal way of breathtaking profundity. Most Piscean writers tend towards realism, even the Romantic Victor Hugo.

In a Scorpio’s presence, by contrast, every thing becomes somewhat lurid and surreal. The hues are exaggerated. The extremes are all too common. The human being is tempted to become totally absorbed in the Illusion of the Manifest World. Scorpio rules sex. What is more illusory than that? Tantra describes it as a total involvement in Maya.

Dm.A.A.

Purification: Part Two.

You seem to believe that you can avail yourself of whatever is made available to you without answering to a Higher Authority.

This is false.

Simply the absence of force is not the absence of power. Soft power is by far more effective than hard power. And you have none. No one will ever condone what you did. No one would ever want to have happen what did happen to me. So no one would ever outwardly profess the same sin as though it were a virtue.

You believe that you are appealing to the stronger part of human nature: the one that wants to identify with the winner rather than with the loser.

You are mistaken.
No one regards you as a winner.
Every one regards you as a loser.
Including her especially.
She might tell you otherwise, but can it be denied she has lied and may continue to?

No one would support what you had done. No one would admit to doing hypothetically what you did in reality.

Because no one would want to be next. And arrogance is not so strong in men as you must believe it to be for you to think that they would presume it would not happen to them. Or that they could handle it if it did. Or that even if they could then it would justify the sufferings of those who cannot.

People are not so crazy as you are.

Dm.A.A.

Purification Alchemy:

KRESTEN:

Nothing you say can serve the Common Good nor serve as evidence for some allegiance that you had to it in theory.

None of it can ever justify what I experienced as the result of your decisions.

I am a human being.

This does not benefit me.

And it was written by a self-serving degenerate who can offer me nothing but self-interest as an incentive.

Therefore logic dictates that it is entirely useless.

And you are in no way entitled to a defense.

Dm.A.A.

ADVICE:

Broad Cast.

One wonders: if all of this is temporary, then why do any thing? I mean: we are so apparently insignificant in the Grand Scheme of Things. But ARE WE insignificant? IS THERE a Grand Scheme of Things? What makes it more significant than US? Why do we feel perpetually dwarfed? Life seems to lose meaning for you when you lose God. WHY? The sky’s the limit if no one is watching you, cutting your wings. And may be God’s still out there, hiding where we least expect Him. May be, all in all, He thinks no less of us. I don’t know. What I DO know: Space is not the final frontier, but rather a perpetual playground. All the Universe is a stage. And we are but players in it. What could be more PERFECT? We are at once audience and player, and if any thing is watching us then it is by its very nature even more mysterious and fascinating than we are. So no fuss. There is literally nothing to complain about.

A man’s work will return to dust. But a great man’s legacy will out-live him. Why leave behind a legacy? Because that way OTHERS will enjoy not only one’s own life but all so its aftermath. What could be a more appropriate employment of one’s time? Will one find IMMORTALITY through inaction? Would one WANT immortality? Would one keep it were it found?

We have forgotten much.

Dm.A.A.

Conservative Marxism:

Conservative Marxism:

Marxism is ordinarily regarded as resting on the left end of the political spectrum. Yet there is an element of conservatism, though perhaps not Rightism, underlying pure Marxism, that is: the sort of vision that endures two centuries of trial and error.

The conservative American psyche of the Right deplores Marx for threatening the Way of Life. Unconsciously, the fear is that under a Marxist dictatorship the individual would never be allowed to grow to his full potential; a man could never BECOME a man, for all would be provided for him, and a woman cannot BECOME a woman because she may rule over men arbitrarily.

Yet this is an insecure conservatism. Fundamentally, a true conservative is not obsessed with PRESERVING the Way of Nature. He knows that he cannot HELP but to preserve it; it endures all. We cannot violate Nature; we can only estrange ourselves from it. To quote Carlin: “The planet is FINE. It’s the PEOPLE that are fucked.”

So a Marxist would say: we do not REQUIRE money as a social institution in order to become-Men. ANY social institution that we must RELY upon to such a degree is a manifestation of infantile dependency.

So Marxism is both liberal AND conservative: liberating us from old traditions whilst CONSERVING our connections with Nature.

Dm.A.A.

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