To surrender to one’s Intuition is to surrender the clamp of
conscious control to the Other. How long can one live without permitting this
to happen? Why does my professor insist that Intuitionism is a false criterion
for ethics? In truth, it may be the only sensible one! Life abo0unds in such
possibilities that only a totally sedentary person could deny that one’s
Unconscious Mind knows infinitely more than does one’s consciousness. One feels
a connectedness with it intuitively, and therein is paradise, and therein is
Sanity: The recognition that Life is paradise. What could be more native to the
Soul than the immediate, felt, uncontroverted and all most unrecognized recognition
that everything is divine manifestation, peculiar and more Alive than one’s own
self, boundless and totally interconnected with it? Like the caterpillar that
curses the frog for asking too many questions, this is our native state. Only
excessive intellectual bullying and teasing creates that schizophrenic split
that primitives call the Death of the Soul. When one first makes the Visionary
State an object of knowledge by remembering it in its absence, how could one
call this loss anything but a vile death??
All ethical thought must at first be felt. We do not act
ethically out of an infantile fear of reproof; that could not be ethical. Some
passion moves us, charging us with direction. This wells up from the body and
fills the heart long before it settles in the mind. This is the impulse to
transcend boundaries, no different from the love that one feels for all things,
but that it moves towards people.
Surely paltry reason could not occupy this role. Reason is
an aesthetic trend, as is causality. Logic only appears amidst symbols. Only
once experience has been reduced to abstractions – and this is all ways done
with the intent to Control – can it be made “sense” of. But who would trade
unadulterated Splendor and spontaneity for the feebleness of estrangement
betwixt subject and object? What Integration could one descend into if one
began with a schizophrenic split, no different from the Christian [and
Platonic] tradition of severing one part of the Soul from the other? Why
pretend towards a knowledge if that means to pretend that the World is known
but hidden, as though our relationship to reality were always a debilitated
one, a disempowered and passionless subservience to the Socratic ideal? And
what could be more pompous than to presume upon one’s own knowledge, reducing
all to the Self as though no Other wove in and out of every action and
decision, haunting the medium before us with potentialities that the Self does
not yet comprehend except by feeble wisps of intuition? Is all systematic
thinking not just interference aimed to impress?
My professor insisted that the “competent ethical reasoner” –
the one that has learned how to reason – would not be a Schindler. What this
means is that his ethic justifies with pitiful subtlety the deaths of thousands
of Jews. For what end? Comfort? Survival, for the love of God? The fuck. It is
nothing short of neurotic. Then he has the nerve to generalize and to say that
all boys of fifteen think highly of their own sexuality. What sort of unanimal
beast romps into the hidden life of a young adolescent boorishly and, in the
words of the Bard, tries to sound him from his lowest note? Besides: Any one
could meet so arbitrary a description, because the Signifier never adequately
signifies the signified. What perversion then to reduce a child to an object.
Dm.A.A.