TR!O:

You see, you clean your lenses and the World becomes clearer. Like magic.

He is rather good at moving on from things, but there is one thing he CANNOT let go. Those things which he no longer dwells upon are fixed in place, yet that’s only because he DOES NOT THINK ABOUT THEM. Yet he always has to wonder: what could I have done to keep this tragedy from happening? He thinks about it, a lot. And for this reason he is uncertain about it.

Factors:

1.     He could have prevented it.

2.     He had his hunches about how to prevent it.

3.     He had ulterior motives to disregard these hunches.

On the other hand:

1.     His foremost critics are the other two.

2.     Both of them may be equally evil, and the one whom he still loves seems to have believed that.

3.     If he was to distrust one traitor, must he disown both?

4.     He is not responsible for their betrayal, but only for having trusted them.

5.     His “ulterior motives” were aimed at arriving at the Best Version of Himself, by generous means.

The more generous position, towards himself, has more arguments, and it seems only fair that a generous person would be generous towards himself. But does that make it more valid, or simply easier to rationalize? The others made gestures of generosity as well, but did they not remain self-entitled and manipulative in doing so?

If morality is objective, rather than subjective, then he is right, and he WAS right. The others simply envy him for his virtue. What he wanted was higher on the spiritual and moral spectrum than what they wanted, and it was tragic to have squandered that. Her death is but a natural consequence of their refusal to repent and grow.

[({Dm.A.A.)}]